It's just the wrong time

They say, if it's meant to be, it will be. I refuse to believe that because I know that
everything's meant to be, it's just not the right time yet. 

I can still remember those days when I was at my lowest point. I was craving for attention. I was in dire need of care and love. I was longing for someone who's going to stay. I was begging for assurance. I was looking for happiness that I couldn't find anywhere I go or to anyone I meet. All along I thought I will never be okay again because I gave everything. I gave every little bit piece of me and I got nothing in return. I thought I will never move on and I will just get stuck to the ghost of the past. But then again, I was wrong.

Time does heal all wounds. People move on and forget. And there will always be someone who's going to make you feel loved again. Someone who's going to give you more than what you deserve without asking for it. Someone who'll definitely make your cold days a little warmer. Someone who's willing to show you the sunshine when things get rough. Someone who's going to wipe your tears and give you a tight hug when you're feeling blue. 

All you have to do is be patient. This person might be your best friend, a lover you've been ignoring for years, a friend, someone you haven't met yet or in worst case, your friend's ex. We'll never know who this is but one thing's for sure, this person will come. Maybe he/she is still in a bad relationship, just came from a break up, or still finding himself/herself alone.

And I'm lucky, I found mine. I stopped waiting until one day, this person came in my life. And I swear in that moment, I told myself, "This is it." It didn't go well at first because this person is still in a relationship. I have no right to interfere their own bubble of happiness. I kept on asking myself if I should continue waiting or just give up because probably it's not meant to be. And I did. I gave up. I stopped looking at this person and focused with my own life again. But after months, this person came to the picture again. In that moment, it was already the right time.

Someone who's willing to listen to my endless and useless rants. Someone who'll try to understand my mood swings when I'm having the time of the month. Someone who'll help me with my school works and even with my identity crisis. Someone who'll wipe my tears and embrace me when I'm being too emotional. Someone who'll cuddle me even if it's too hot. Someone who'll listen to my monotone singing voice. Someone who'll not get tired to force me to eat even if I don't have the appetite. Someone who'll find the food that I crave. Someone who'll go to adventures with me. This person is now that someone who doesn't just give me the reason to get up every single day but also someone who keeps me awake every night. 

Surely, in time, things will fall right in place.