Home

It's Sunday morning and I'm sitting down wondering where you are and what you are doing. I feel lonely. I feel the emptiness of not having someone who thinks about you. I feel alone because there's no one I can call home. I forgot what it's like to love someone and be loved back just the same. I forgot how to take care of someone and be taken care of. I forgot how to be in a relationship. I forgot everything about love and commitments because all I'm left right now is emptiness.

They say it's happier and better to be single because you don't have worries and responsibilities. But, I'd definitely say no to that. I'm always looking for the feeling of companionship. I just want to feel that I belong to someone and that someone belongs to me. This may sound as ownership to other people but for me, it is assurance of a home. I always consider my special someone as my home. A home that I can always go back to at the end of everyday. A home that I can always be comfortable to be myself. A home that I can share and pour out all my feelings without the slightest possibility of being judged. A home that can remind me of who I was, who I am right now and who I will be in the future. A home that even though there'll be a lot of changes around me would remain just the same for me. A home that would accept all my thoughts and darkest side. A home that would love me as a whole even my imperfections.

And if I find this person I can call my home, I won't let go this time. I wouldn't think of running away again just because things are tough. I would fight as long as I can. I would treasure every moment and make the most out of it. I would love the person without reasons and without begging for the other person to love me as much. I would accept every little piece of that person. I would compromise and always meet him halfway. I would make the relationship work every single day. I would do my best just to keep us. I would let us grow as individuals but of course, we're going to do this together. I would make us have a strong foundation to the point that people would say, "They're still together?" I would make this relationship last for a long time because this time, I'm not running away. I'm going to stay.